8/19/13 Monday

Day #1
I start things with the best of intentions and never follow thru. On my 36th birthday last week; I decided I wanted to journal my prayers. Well I haven't started but it's weighing heavy in my conscience and I keep "remembering" that's what I said I wanted to do. . . Don't know if that's ME reminded me or God. But nonetheless. I'm headed out in a few to get my journal. My purpose is to hold myself accountable. For if I continuously go to God in prayer and don't put in my own WORK how can I expect a change. My Faith is real. My God is awesome but isn't my walk suppose to change me from the inside out? YES! So my actions and thoughts and definitely my prayers should reflect GROWTH.

My life - will not be televised - but if you follow me, LOL you'll get a front row seat!

D.Weems

Truth be told. . .

Truth be told, I should have my own psychic hotline. Truth be told, I knew this before it all played out. Truth be told this was the very thing that has been spiritually keeping me imprisoned. Truth be told CHAINS WILL BE BROKEN today. Truth be told it's been a resolution I've been battling for 7 years. Today I leave things #BEHIND. I break the hold that you had over me and my soul. Go back to the womb because you're just not fully developed yet. I'm missing out on a blessing that God has for me because I can't hear him. Because I keep making the same mistake over and over again.  I need to break away and not allow your negativity to leech off of me any longer. I'm tired. Tired of fighting for something that's not genuine.  Something that is not mine. It's not real. I've been trying to hold on to an image of love while the true definition of false imagery was manifesting right before my eyes with each passing day.

I hold a very high standard in my heart and with every second, minute, hour and every day that passed there were little tests and opportunities that were missed. You would argue i set the bar over your head but you sat down and chose to not try at all instead.

My prayer is things are at the rock bottom at this moment so we can start to see life thru new eyes as we rise. No need to be together but life partners is what we are.

Truth be told. . . God saw this play out before we were ever born.

8/12/13

Life owes you what?

Some people stay playing the victim...looking for a handout...wanting help...wanting someone to say "poor baby"! Grow up and take care of it urself!! You created the mess you're in so why shouldn't you fix it yourself. Stop babying yourself. ..life doesn't OWE you anything except a LESSON!