As nice as I could I put it into words. No anger, simple words of the heart. Didn't get much reaction just that I don't speak and spend too much time on my phone. Who else should I turn to when the true person I want attention from is only a shell of someone I used to know!???!??!!
My heart, my mind and my soul are all alone.
2.18.2014
My heart cries louder than any voice!
My heart is heavier than a million tons!
My mind races faster than the speed of light. My mind has a trillion thoughts.
My soul runs deeper than the longest ocean. My soul is sweeter than the fruit forbidden.
Overlooked and forgotten,
My heart, my mind and soul
broken and taken for granted.
I sure hope that the first month is no indication of what to expect for the rest of the year. Still living with family. Got in a car accident that totaled my car. Only get back the car's worth not what I owe. In constant pain over it and no relief or empathy from anyone, not a single person. Missing time from work. Not getting paid for it either. I hate praying for money but that certainly is missing in this equation. ..In abundance. House. Car (s). Good Credit. Security. Clothes. Piece of mind. These are my prayers for 2014.
Took the family to a spend the weekend at a hotel and aside from being able to make noise it wasn't much enjoyed. The kids enjoyed the pool and the free breakfast but no one said thank you- I try to do what I can without complaint but when I'm doing and you're taking the very least you should feel compelled to do is utter a simple thank you...NOT "so where's my birthday gift".
Then spent the day walking to and fro in a big hospital with major back pains - again no thank you. Was forced to go to my doctor appointment alone and with 5 kids. No explanation until after. ..to me I feel like I'm at the bottom of the totem pole and I'm just support not wanted simply needed. In my feelings!
The 1 good thing is I saw more of Vanessa. She's maturing beautifully and boy is she just like me. Haahaa!
